New Scrap page...

Well I know I haven't been scrapping all that much since everything happened 6 months ago but I finally got some time and was in the mood and the pic inspired me too..hehe...

Ryan and I....

I've been a bad bad blogger...huge update

well I know I've been a very bad blogger..lol..you don't have to tell me..but I've been pretty busy with life the last 6 months and it's been crazy I have so much stuff to tell...so I'll make it short cause if I explain the whole thing right now it could take days..lol..so anyways here's my huge update..all has happened since my last entry in July that was just after my surgery for my etopic pregnacy..I healed well from the surgery but still have the stupid IUD in which I need to get out a.s.a.p...anyways as some of you might know I left my husband Dave on July 8th 2007 I packed and moved out while he was at work the best time to do it and no he had no idea either, not sure why when he was abusive to me guess he thought I would just continue to take it well no I finally had enough and moved out from there I stayed 3 months at a women's shelter which wasn't all that bad they were able tohelp me to get my new place and I had alot of support through that time..So on October 12th I moved into my own 3 bdrm apartment with my 3 kiddos..where we started our new life and my new journey..things have been going pretty good I got used to the whole living on my own thing which for me was very scary at first but it didn't take long for me to adjust to t and believe me I was much happier and stil am do I miss my husband..no I can honestly say I don't what he put me through was crazy and I don't miss that life at all. of course Dave;s still around to see his kids, he takes them on the weekends but he's still an ass and we don't get along all that well but I try to for the kids sake because that is there dad...So I have some huge news...I'm in love and I mean true love...so heres the story so I have this friend Matt and we chilled a few times whatever..anyways one day Matt calls me and asks me if I wanna go to the bar this was on a friday night and I said ya I was actually wanting to go out but all my friends were busy..lol..so he said he was bringing is brother Ryan and I said that was cool...so anyways that night I met up ith Matt and his brother Ryan and w had a good time at the bar I was talking with Ryan and he seemed like an awesome guy..so after that night me and Ryan started chatting on the computer and such and we just seemed to have a connection. On November 21st/2007 Ryan and I got into a realtionship..hehe..and it will be 3 months soon and were still together and we have a great realtionship...I love him so much he is truly the sweetest and I can't even begin to tell you how well he treats me when he looks at me I feel like the world he makes me beyond happy and I know I want to spend a lifetime with him..and I'm pretty sure he feels the same about me so after this post I will add some pics of us and also a scrap page that I just finished tonight. The kids are doing pretty good they have been acting out alot though but I guess that's only natural after a seperation but other then tha things are going great..I'm pretty happy about life..and also soon I'll be looking for a job I need to keep busy and make some extra money so I can do things..Anyways that's all from me right now I'll be sure to keep updating though...xoxoxox

I'm Here

It's been awhile since I've updated my blog but well I've had a whirlwind happen to me these last few days and just couldn't post..so here I am to bare my soul today.. On Sunday Morning I woke up just after 8 am and I sat up and all of a sudden I had an intense pain like someone was stabbing me over and over again in my stomach in my pelvic area so I got up went to the bathroom and tried to lay back down figuring it may just be nothing so I tried to lay down and it just hurt worse and the tears started pouring down my cheeks I could take it it hurt so bad my husband didn't know what was going on or what to do so he rushed to the phone and called the ambulance they came a few minutes later and asked me the level of my pain and I said 10 out of 10 and they loaded me in and took me to the hospital I get a room right away and they start asking me questions and insert an IV in my arm and take my blood they came in and gave me some demerol for the pain and told me the doctor would be in pretty quickly to see me the doctor came in and was asking me questions and touched my stomach and was concerned I said that I have an IUD in place and thought that it may have slipped and got stuck somewhere. He then said they were waiting on my blood results. So abit later the doctor came back with my blood results and told me that I was pregnant I said oh my "Ok" and he said you didn't know I said i had no idea and he said he thought it maybe etopic..so he went to get the OBGYN she came down and talked to me about etopic pregnancy and what it does and how it has to be treated and said she wanted me to have an ultrasound. So a few minutes later off to Ultrasound I go and I was in so much pain they do the ultrasound and the lady says..oh my no wonder your in pain and i asked why and she said she could see some blood in my stomach, I was just in shock and didn't know what they meant or what to do. I've never had anything like that happen to me before. at that point I'm just praying to God that my baby is ok and where it's supposed to be. So they take me back to my room and a few minutes later the doctor comes back in and tells me that it's an etopic pregnancy and I have to go for surgery to get it removed I say ok but really am scared as hell since I've never had any kind of surgery before. I ask if I can call my husband to tell him what's going on and they say ok..I use the phone and talk to him for a few minutes hang up and go to walk back to my room and everything goes blurry I couldn't see a thing and almost fall to the floor the nurse grabs me and rushes me back to bed and tells me to breath and then I start to feel better and she tells me not to move out of bed. The nurse talked to me mom and DH and my mom said that she would watch the kids so Dave could be there with me when I got out of surgery. 20 minutes later I'm being wheeled up to the OR and I'm scared and they lay me on the bed and put that mask on my face and tell me to breath I remember doing that about 5 times and that's it then the next thing I know I'm in a room in bed and it's all over and DH is sitting there. Then the nurse comes in and tells me that my blood levels are really low and that I'm Anemic and they need to give me a blood transfusion I agree and they start that about 7 hours later and I recieved alot of blood. The doctor told me that the baby was in my ovary and that hardly ever happens and that I had alot of blood in my stomach and they also found a cyst on my ovary so I believe they removed that ovary from me. it's been 5 days and I'm home now got home yesterday and still have some pain they took the staples off yesterday and my stomach seems to be healing nicley so I'm taking 3 iron pills a day aswell as Tylenol for the pain every 4 hours as I need it. I'm feeling really sad that I lost the baby but I guess it just wan't meant to be everything happens for a reason and it's just so sad and hard to get over, over the coming few weeks I have to go every monday for blood tests to check my levels and then in 6 weeks I have to see the OBGYN and get the IUD out and I tell you I am NEVER getting another one in!!!! but I didn't happen to finish up a scrap page of what happened kinda a letter to the baby I lost as you can see. Well I'm off to go and relax and sit down for abit can't sit here on this chair for long it hurts if I do.

YAY!!!!

I woke up this morning to something awesome..after I got my tea I sat down at the computer and went to DST and I had a PM guess what it was?...Vera Lim PM'd me and asked if I'd like to be on her Guest CT for the month of July and of course I said yes..I love her stuff!!! Then yesterday I was rakd twice by Melissa Bennett and her new grid papers they rock and Jacque Larson's monkey Elements..I tell ya I'm on cloud 9 right now. this morning I managed to complete 2 new LO's with some of the items I got. here's one using Melissa Bennetts grid paper. Credits Here



Oh and if you look at the top of my Blog you will see that you can now subscribe to it I finally figured it out..lol..so Ya I'm happy to have that on here, well I better get going and start my cleaning got a bit to do today the joys.

Oh my....

Ok I know I said I was going but I was just looking through my Photobucket and I found an older photo of me and Chloe, she's so little and chubby...awww it really don't seem that long ago and now she's almost 3..my how the time flies by. Ok I'm going now..lol

It's Tuesday...

And I'm just sitting around..gotta fold the laundry in abit I got like 12 loads to fold..oops ya I'm behind..lol..but for the most part the house is pretty clean and I managed already this morning to do up the Christina Renee CT Challenge..so who knows what may happen. I have a few scraps to share wanna get them up on here so I don't forget and get behind...hehe

Here's the LO I did for the CT Challenge

and the other ones....

Credits: Kit Used: Super Boy By: Traci Reed
Frames: Holly McCaig

Credits: Kit Used: Red Dye #3 by Chere Edwards

So...no big plans here today just the usual cleaning and laundry..ahh the joys I tell ya...I'm going to attempt a 2 page LO today so we shall see if I can pull it off I've only made a 2 pahe LO once before and that was awhile ago and my style has really changed since then. So I'm off now..